Hello World!
Tough times don’t last, tough people do. – Robert Schuller
My name is Ciana ‘Ci’, and I am an alcoholic. I’ve struggled with addiction for most of my life. As a teenager I experimented with drugs and alcohol but was always able to stop using drugs without any significant withdrawals or impact. Alcohol on the other hand, was not so easy.
I’ve maintained sobriety in the past for long periods of time but always given in to ‘one drink’. For those of us suffering from addiction you know that one drink is too many, and one more is never enough. I wanted this time to be different, I needed this time to be different, because no matter how much I lied to myself and tried to lie to everyone else, I could see the effects in every aspect of my life.
So, I went to rehab! I started journaling as part of my daily routine in rehab. I kept thinking about something I heard there that really resonated with me. I watched a recording of Brene Brown who said, “One day you will tell your story of how you overcame what you went through, and it will be someone else’s survival guide.” I don’t know if this blog will become someone else’s survival guide or just my journal to reflect back on later, I will be stronger for it either way.
May you be sober and happy always! Ci
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Hello Beautiful People
3.13.25 I had a long, peaceful sleep last night to recharge; that was much needed. I pushed the reset button on my emotions, told the doom and gloom to get the fuck out, and I’m ready to make it a beautiful day! My best friend’s father-in-law made it through his surgery yesterday so that means…
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Sadness Sucks
3.11.25 Since my counseling appointment yesterday, I have been overwhelmed with sadness. We’re dealing with issues that are beyond frustrating because I don’t understand why I can’t get the fuck over my sadness they make me feel. I could talk and cry through the feelings enough to realize the root emotion is failure. I failed…