Hello World!

Tough times don’t last, tough people do. – Robert Schuller

My name is Ciana ‘Ci’, and I am an alcoholic. I’ve struggled with addiction for most of my life. As a teenager I experimented with drugs and alcohol but was always able to stop using drugs without any significant withdrawals or impact. Alcohol on the other hand, was not so easy.

I’ve maintained sobriety in the past for long periods of time but always given in to ‘one drink’. For those of us suffering from addiction you know that one drink is too many, and one more is never enough. I wanted this time to be different, I needed this time to be different, because no matter how much I lied to myself and tried to lie to everyone else, I could see the effects in every aspect of my life.

So, I went to rehab! I started journaling as part of my daily routine in rehab. I kept thinking about something I heard there that really resonated with me. I watched a recording of Brene Brown who said, “One day you will tell your story of how you overcame what you went through, and it will be someone else’s survival guide.” I don’t know if this blog will become someone else’s survival guide or just my journal to reflect back on later, I will be stronger for it either way.

May you be sober and happy always! Ci

  • Sharing Is Caring

    1.11.25 A friend from my rehab alumni group shared this meme in our private app. Days later I still can’t stop laughing at it! Probably because it reminds me of when I attempt to explain how I do anything in my life. It got me thinking about sharing in AA meetings. I hear a topic…

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  • Switch It Up

    1.10.25 I’ve been restless and struggling the past week with my schedule. It’s just not working for me. I woke up reminding myself that this is my recovery and the key is doing what works for me. My morning reading time hasn’t been something I look forward to and the words aren’t resonating. I have…

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  • Fuck Around and Find Out

    1.9.25 Fuck around and find out has been one of my favorite things to say for years. I love it because when I say it to other people, I’m usually speaking from experience in whatever their situation is. And when I’m say it to myself, I already know I’m going to find out the really…

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  • Take a Break

    1.8.25 I came home from work today with the best intentions to do about 100 things around the house and then go to a meeting. I looked at the couch and could tell my true love needed quality time with me. Sometimes you just need a little down time. Sober life is no joke, I’m…

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