Hello World!
Tough times don’t last, tough people do. – Robert Schuller
My name is Ciana ‘Ci’, and I am an alcoholic. I’ve struggled with addiction for most of my life. As a teenager I experimented with drugs and alcohol but was always able to stop using drugs without any significant withdrawals or impact. Alcohol on the other hand, was not so easy.
I’ve maintained sobriety in the past for long periods of time but always given in to ‘one drink’. For those of us suffering from addiction you know that one drink is too many, and one more is never enough. I wanted this time to be different, I needed this time to be different, because no matter how much I lied to myself and tried to lie to everyone else, I could see the effects in every aspect of my life.
So, I went to rehab! I started journaling as part of my daily routine in rehab. I kept thinking about something I heard there that really resonated with me. I watched a recording of Brene Brown who said, “One day you will tell your story of how you overcame what you went through, and it will be someone else’s survival guide.” I don’t know if this blog will become someone else’s survival guide or just my journal to reflect back on later, I will be stronger for it either way.
May you be sober and happy always! Ci
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Cranky Bitch
2.18.25 Somedays I have to allow myself to just be a cranky bitch. I slept well, in my bed for brownie points. I did have another disturbing dream that I relapsed but stayed pretty positive throughout the day. On my way home I continued listening to my book and know it’s helpful in my growth.…
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The Let Them Theory – Mel Robbins
2.17.25 This book was recommended in te meeting I attended yesterday morning. As a people pleaser, it interested me immediately and I bought it on Audible. With all the books I’m trying to read, and only so many hours in a day, listening to some of them in the car makes it easier to get…
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Proud Mama
2.16.25 My Daughter called while I was running errands and wanted to come over to hang out with me. She had a rough week and needed someone to talk to. As a mom, I want to take all of her pain away. I wish I could make it mine, but that is not how life…
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Flea Market Fun
2.15.25 On the way to the Flea Market this morning we talked about how pleasantly different it was to be awake and productive early-ish on a weekend with plans. During active addiction, I might have made plans with the best intentions to go. This morning, I wouldn’t have had the energy to get out of…