Hello World!
Tough times don’t last, tough people do. – Robert Schuller
My name is Ciana ‘Ci’, and I am an alcoholic. I’ve struggled with addiction for most of my life. As a teenager I experimented with drugs and alcohol but was always able to stop using drugs without any significant withdrawals or impact. Alcohol on the other hand, was not so easy.
I’ve maintained sobriety in the past for long periods of time but always given in to ‘one drink’. For those of us suffering from addiction you know that one drink is too many, and one more is never enough. I wanted this time to be different, I needed this time to be different, because no matter how much I lied to myself and tried to lie to everyone else, I could see the effects in every aspect of my life.
So, I went to rehab! I started journaling as part of my daily routine in rehab. I kept thinking about something I heard there that really resonated with me. I watched a recording of Brene Brown who said, “One day you will tell your story of how you overcame what you went through, and it will be someone else’s survival guide.” I don’t know if this blog will become someone else’s survival guide or just my journal to reflect back on later, I will be stronger for it either way.
May you be sober and happy always! Ci
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Humanness
4.3.25 I didn’t have anything particular to write about this morning until I read the Daily Reflection on Accepting Our Humanness. I just had this conversation with my roommate! Except he called it Maybe I Am An Asshole. You are by the way, but you’re funny and also one of my favorite humans ever. The…
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I Own You Wednesday
4.2.25 I slept in until 6 am this morning, it didn’t suck at all! I was in a rush to get the coffee brewing, and my morning routine started when I checked my work email and decided to take care of a few things. If you know me, my phone is an extension of me.…
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More Or Less
3.31.25 More early more ramblings from a crazy woman. Ha! See what I did there? I’m not wealthy, but I am rich. I’m rich because I have a lot of love to give, and I try to make more out of less with it. I show my love through acts of kindness and love. I…