Hello World!

Tough times don’t last, tough people do. – Robert Schuller

My name is Ciana ‘Ci’, and I am an alcoholic. I’ve struggled with addiction for most of my life. As a teenager I experimented with drugs and alcohol but was always able to stop using drugs without any significant withdrawals or impact. Alcohol on the other hand, was not so easy.

I’ve maintained sobriety in the past for long periods of time but always given in to ‘one drink’. For those of us suffering from addiction you know that one drink is too many, and one more is never enough. I wanted this time to be different, I needed this time to be different, because no matter how much I lied to myself and tried to lie to everyone else, I could see the effects in every aspect of my life.

So, I went to rehab! I started journaling as part of my daily routine in rehab. I kept thinking about something I heard there that really resonated with me. I watched a recording of Brene Brown who said, “One day you will tell your story of how you overcame what you went through, and it will be someone else’s survival guide.” I don’t know if this blog will become someone else’s survival guide or just my journal to reflect back on later, I will be stronger for it either way.

May you be sober and happy always! Ci

  • WE Serenity Prayer

    1.22.25 Grant US the serenity to accept the things we cannot change, the courage to change the things WE can, and the wisdom to know the difference. The Serenity Prayer feels even more powerful in the WE version. The fellowship in my program is what keeps me coming back. I was powerless over alcohol and…

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  • Sponsorship

    1.21.25 I’ve been having mixed emotions about getting a sponsor. I was eager when I first came home from rehab because I wanted to do everything I could to maintain my sobriety by trying my best to do as I was told. After all, what do I know about being sober? As time passed, I…

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  • 3 Day Weekends

    Weekends are more difficult for me than weekdays because I have a lot more time on my hands. I stay busy with friends and meetings to fill the time and try to stay out of my head. It’s not easy and if I’m going to have a shitty day, it’s probably going to be on…

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  • What A Weekend!

    1.19.25 Friday night rehab alumni meetings are my favorite. The people in the meetings and the staff there have seen me at my absolute worst and still loved me. Going back every Friday is a great reminder that I never want to be that helpless and hopeless again and who helped me climb my way…

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